I'm His Until I'm Mine

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In my defense, I do love him. That's why I perform for him and act older than I am. I reject autonomy because my autonomy is what hurts him most. 

I don't think I stay because I'm scared to break his heart. I stay because I'm scared of what happens to his life if I'm not a part of it. 

So, what matters more? My freedom? Or his survival? I wish I could say it feels like a choice.

I wish I could say I feel something when he kisses me. 

I just feel ambitious—like someday I'll be young again; I just have to wait. 

I'm his until I'm mine. 

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